Do You Smoke Pot?

Do you smoke pot? Do you eat edibles? I am getting so tired of this question, as I am getting asked it almost daily.

When I got sober, I decided consciously to rid my body and mind completely of substances including cigarettes. So I decided not to turn alcohol into another habit.

It’s no different to me, if I gave up alcohol but I had decided to snort cocaine (though not according to society) and honestly I much prefer to go up, than be chowing down on Oreo’s and slugging about. I believe a drug is a drug (alcohol is a drug, pot is a drug, cigarettes are a drug, oxycontaine is a drug, cocaine is a drug) . The only difference to me is the government legalizing and collecting money off of it and labelling it ok.

Honestly I am sick and tired of the pot culture that has popped up here, there is a cannabis shop on every block in my city, people smoke it walking down the street, I’d be arrested if I walked around with a wine glass, or shamed if you smoke a cigarette here in public.

I have known too many that have substituted one substance for another, and again are running/hiding/ not dealing with the real issues, numbing out just using a different agent.

So the answer is no my friends the answer is no I do not smoke pot, I don’t do cocaine, cigarettes, or oxy, or any other drug and yes yes yes I have fun. It’s called life in full colour.

Getting Drinking Under Control

  • “I drink my wine so fast I get smashed before dinner” time to switch to coolers”
  • “I’m going to switch from coolers back to wine all that carbonation is making me bloated and I can drink a lot of coolers”
  • “We can’t drink during the week anymore week anymore, I feel like hell
  • I’ll only drink on Friday and Saturday. Oh ok Sunday brunch too.
  • “I’ll only do one Wine Wednesday a month
  • “I’ll only have a glass of wine with dinner”
  • ” I’m going to switch to vodka and soda even though I don’t really like the taste of it, but I’m packing on the pounds from all the coolers”
  • “We need to drink right after work, not later’
  • “We need to start drinking during the day so we can go to bed early and don’t have a have a hangover tomorrow.”

The above were all things I said aloud or in my head, I’m sure there were a hundred more, what I didn’t know at the time was I was trying to moderate. I’d never heard that term before I started digging into my Recovery. To my way of thinking I was just trying to have less of a hangover on work days and less of a shit show and of course more control.

This conversation has come up lately in a few of my sober groups and with friends. We have talked about trying to control our drinking with switching out, switching up, and doing things differently. The overwhelming thing was every one I have talked with has done the control thing in one form or another, Each and Every One, that’s a 100% statistic.

The other statistic that came out was every single person has googled something about controlling drinking, or if they were an alcoholic, or about alcohol problems.

Deep down, in your gut/intuition if you are trying to control an issue, you know it’s a problem whether it’s a phase in your life or an actual problem is something that only time tells.

I have gone through stages in my life where my drinking was more then less, but when I started trying to have to control it, because my mental health, my overall well being and the gong show of evenings were becoming more regular than not and I couldn’t get it under control, (ie everything you just read up top wasn’t working) that’s when I knew it was time to look at stopping (but that’s another blog post)

Can you identify with any of the above moderations? I’d love to hear about it.

xoxox Christina

Holy Shit… I forgot I had this blog

Wow I got busy sobriety can do that to you.  I started working on my own fitness company and thought no one wants to hear about my alcohol problems they want to see how you can workout.  So I’ve been focusing on that.

I FREAKING HONOURED A YEARS SOBRIETY IN AUGUST,  along with being a year cigarette free!   CAN YOU BELIEVE IT, I CAN’T, I still can’t its so surreal.  I celebrated by going to Paris, where everyone drinks and smokes and I had the best time ever, being so present in a city that’s beyond describable in beauty ( or maybe it is I’m just not that great at descriptions lol).  Every morning (that I wasn’t jet lagged – yeah not hungover, jet lagged) I woke up and ran by the Eiffel Tower, through the park to the Trocadero  (no crowds just stunning sunrises, the park mostly to myself, I fell so in love with Paris and with my life again.  I don’t think I’ve ever been so grateful for my sobriety, for my life in being able to take in the moments.

I never wanted to drink in Paris, but I wanted to smoke (they still have ashtrays on the patio restaurant tables wtf hmmm coffee and cigarettes)  but I didn’t, because I know that’s a slippery slope for me.  My awareness level of the amount of drinking hough was huge, and even my husband noticed it.  Women after work sitting drinking alone in cafes, reading a book.  I spoke to women that weren’t from Paris but other parts of Northern Europe and they too noticed it, I thought it was just us Canadians that maybe weren’t used to it NOPE,  women drink a lot more in public alone there.  I wanted to tell them there’s another way, there’s another way,  as I drank my amazing cappuccino’s.

Life still has it’s ups and downs, but if it didn’t that would be boring.  I came out publicly on my  fitness social media as sober a few weeks ago.  Well I drip fed it, first I admitted I smoked for years full time when I first started working out  then only when I drank, then I admitted I binged drank heavily.  Interestingly enough my clients, my chiropractor, friends have been super supportive.  Funny enough my closest friend since Grade 5 though didn’t say fuck all to me (she doesn’t have a drinking problem at all) I was a little hurt no I was a lot hurt.  Like nothing we text every day not a fucking word and I know she sees all my posts.   Still haven’t said anything to my parents, I hate judgement and gossip and a pity party (which is how they live).  I fully believe that taking action first and announcing it to the world second worked for me.

I had a conversation with my son he’s 22, that I was going to come out on Instagram (which is my business platform) about being sober.  I asked him if he’d noticed I’d stopped drinking (remember this conversation is a year into my sobriety now LOL).  He said yes.   I told him I was going to come out about my binge drinking and struggles around alcohol. He nodded asked me if he was going to find out anything weird, I shrugged said yes probably.  We laughed.  He then said “I don’t think there’s anything wrong with having a glass of wine”  I said “when did you ever see me have ONE glass of wine” He laughed and said “good point”    I then said if I could have one glass I wouldn’t be sober.  And then in typical 22 year old style he changed the subject. He has liked every one of my sobriety posts and so have his friends, so I hope I’m inspiring them to know at a younger age than me that you can have a life without drinking and if they are struggling to take a look at it now. It’s so much better.

Ok for now my sober loves.  Have a good one.

xoxo Christina