Reality of Sober Long Weekends

Reality of Sober Long Weekends

May Long weekend, the unofficial kick off to summer. Instagram, Facebook and Snapchat are showing us all how amazing life everyones life is. But you are watching all of this and your weekend doesn’t look like these epic events that are taking place.

Sober Long Weekends

My very first sober long weekend was 2 years ago and it was hell. In fact I didn’t I didn’t make it through sober, I said fuck it. Worst mistake ever, because guess what drinking didn’t make it epic.

Fast forward to when I finally got a month of not drinking and the next sober long weekend rolled around and all I felt like was an outsider. It was the end of summer not the beginning, everyone was travelling or camping or throwing bbq’s and I was crying in bed, binging netflix and feeling like a loser.

Go forward in the journey a bit more to this past weekend. I was watching everyones stories on social media & that old feeling popped up. Everyone was away, everyone was drinking, bbqing, having the time of their lives. Except me. Well that’s what it seemed like on social media.

So I started thinking about my weekend, I did a lot of work, hung out with my husband, ran, went to a fantastic sushi place for dinner, and really just rested, isn’t that what long weekends are for?

Reality vs Social Media

My girlfriend came back from camping and I spoke to her, she was exhausted, hungover and already dreading Tuesday. Her family trip was so amazing and fun on instagram, but what she spoke of was about was the chaos. The drunkeness, the expense, the exhaustion, who didn’t get along with who. It was exhausting to listen to.

My son, who’s weekend was all over social media, came home hungover, grumpy and battled traffic for 4 hours what should have been a 1.5- 2 hour drive home.

I on the other hand though my weekend may not have been “instagram worthy”, but it was hangover free, so when you look at the highlight reel remember a sober long weekend is really a great long weekend. If you are bored and remember boredom is a trigger download the Ultimate Guide What to do Instead of Drinking Here

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xoxox Christina

Ashamed of NOT Drinking

When I began looking at my relationship with alcohol, I stopped and started many times. In my mind I was failing at quitting. Then days turned to weeks and weeks turned to months. I was super proud of myself. Though deciding on my own to quit, there was no intervention, there was no public announcement, there was “no I quit” I didn’t tell a soul in fear of failure. I would just politely decline alcohol. People were starting to notice.

SHAME IN NOT BEING ABLE TO DRINK

In fact I never even opened up to my own family. I was ashamed I couldn’t handle my alcohol, I couldn’t handle what millions of people around the world deem as normal. I felt like shit. Being that it was Mothers Day yesterday, I was thinking back to a year ago. I was about 9 months sober and my son and his girlfriend took me out for dinner. They were drinking these fabulous belini’s and my son handed it to me and said try a sip and I faked trying a sip as I didn’t want to tell him.

My entire life I’ve felt like I was less than, not drinking was feeling once again that I was less than.

Fast forward a few more months, after that Mothers Day Dinner in 2018 and I changed my mindset, to I am more than, not less than. I am doing what millions & millions of people deem not normal, how amazing is that! I lived in that truth. Now everyone knows.

Back to Shame

Almost two years into not drinking, I am back to shame. For some reason these past few months I have , not really wanting to talk about not drinking, maybe because it’s part of my lifestyle now, or maybe because there is something that needs to be healed. I’m not too sure.

Has anyone else gone through this? Please Comment, looking for suggestions, advice… anything

xoxox Christina

5 Things Happened Taking A Week Off Exercise

Last week I overdid my exercise. Early Monday morning I went to spin, it was a beautiful day so I went for a 5km run. This past year I have been on a mission to building & strengthening my core through exercise.

As soon as I was home my lower back was aching, by the next morning I was very stiff. Having trouble walking and moving the wrong way, would take my breath away. I knew I was not going to be exercising.

Hit up my chiropractor and he squeezed me in, and told me to take the rest of the week off. I freaked I’m training for a half marathon (and I’m 47) and not the best at running long distances. He said well it’s either that or your back is going to go out and you will be on the floor, at the moment you have a spasm, and a choice. I coach fitness clients, I exercise daily what in the hell was I going to do.

5 Things that happened, taking a week off exercise.

  1. First off I got caught up work. I did things that I’ve been putting off like updating websites, blogging, filing, organized my office.
  2. As a result of being more organized, I was able to work on my self care. Stretching was my number one priority this week and I admit I need to do more of it.
  3. Reading is also high on my self care list and in The Teetotalers Book Club we are reading You Are a Bad Ass by Jen Sincero.
  4. I went for walks with my husband and spent some quality time together. I am use to doing things at a fairly high pace and walking is not usually one of them it has been so nice.
  5. Decided to try out a few new healthy recipes, but I also found I ate more junk food, usually I keep my healthy eating at 90% with 10% junk food and this past week I have found it has been more at 75% and 25% junk food. Food and exercise have a high correlation.

All in all my back is feeling better, and I am excited to get back to running, lifting and spinning. To get back into routine, as I think that has been the hardest part for me being so completely out of routine. I will be easing into the my workouts!

xoxo Christina