Wow I got busy sobriety can do that to you. I started working on my own fitness company and thought no one wants to hear about my alcohol problems they want to see how you can workout. So I’ve been focusing on that.
I FREAKING HONOURED A YEARS SOBRIETY IN AUGUST, along with being a year cigarette free! CAN YOU BELIEVE IT, I CAN’T, I still can’t its so surreal. I celebrated by going to Paris, where everyone drinks and smokes and I had the best time ever, being so present in a city that’s beyond describable in beauty ( or maybe it is I’m just not that great at descriptions lol). Every morning (that I wasn’t jet lagged – yeah not hungover, jet lagged) I woke up and ran by the Eiffel Tower, through the park to the Trocadero (no crowds just stunning sunrises, the park mostly to myself, I fell so in love with Paris and with my life again. I don’t think I’ve ever been so grateful for my sobriety, for my life in being able to take in the moments.
I never wanted to drink in Paris, but I wanted to smoke (they still have ashtrays on the patio restaurant tables wtf hmmm coffee and cigarettes) but I didn’t, because I know that’s a slippery slope for me. My awareness level of the amount of drinking hough was huge, and even my husband noticed it. Women after work sitting drinking alone in cafes, reading a book. I spoke to women that weren’t from Paris but other parts of Northern Europe and they too noticed it, I thought it was just us Canadians that maybe weren’t used to it NOPE, women drink a lot more in public alone there. I wanted to tell them there’s another way, there’s another way, as I drank my amazing cappuccino’s.
Life still has it’s ups and downs, but if it didn’t that would be boring. I came out publicly on my fitness social media as sober a few weeks ago. Well I drip fed it, first I admitted I smoked for years full time when I first started working out then only when I drank, then I admitted I binged drank heavily. Interestingly enough my clients, my chiropractor, friends have been super supportive. Funny enough my closest friend since Grade 5 though didn’t say fuck all to me (she doesn’t have a drinking problem at all) I was a little hurt no I was a lot hurt. Like nothing we text every day not a fucking word and I know she sees all my posts. Still haven’t said anything to my parents, I hate judgement and gossip and a pity party (which is how they live). I fully believe that taking action first and announcing it to the world second worked for me.
I had a conversation with my son he’s 22, that I was going to come out on Instagram (which is my business platform) about being sober. I asked him if he’d noticed I’d stopped drinking (remember this conversation is a year into my sobriety now LOL). He said yes. I told him I was going to come out about my binge drinking and struggles around alcohol. He nodded asked me if he was going to find out anything weird, I shrugged said yes probably. We laughed. He then said “I don’t think there’s anything wrong with having a glass of wine” I said “when did you ever see me have ONE glass of wine” He laughed and said “good point” I then said if I could have one glass I wouldn’t be sober. And then in typical 22 year old style he changed the subject. He has liked every one of my sobriety posts and so have his friends, so I hope I’m inspiring them to know at a younger age than me that you can have a life without drinking and if they are struggling to take a look at it now. It’s so much better.
Ok for now my sober loves. Have a good one.