Day Whaaat?

So I haven’t been counting the days sober, because I didn’t count my days of drinking but…….  I’ve had a pretty tough October being sober and I suddenly realized I always when I have been sober thought it was for longer but…. this has been my longest stint of sobriety, wanting sobriety (know what I mean, not stopping drinking because I was pregnant & breastfeeding or because I was on a diet – which are legitimately two of my other reasons I have stopped drinking)  Actually looking at my drinking and deciding to do something about it.    The first time was 10 weeks (I had to go look at the calendar to actually see how long it was I thought it was 4 months OMG)  next was 8.5 weeks and many other shorter stints, but never giving up.

I feel that the 60-90 days is perilous for me, so I am staying vigilant.   I also have seen many people relapse including myself in that time.   I feel as this is  a huge healing time a huge shifting time (mind body and soul).  If anyone has any insight on this time frame I would love to hear it.

Tonight I admit has been a tough one, it’s Friday and there’s a nagging at me, I’ve had a good day and a few incidences that brought up anger.  I am fed but feel like I can’t breathe.  Anxious.  So I decided to first reach out to some sober sisters, then I decided to do a Kundalini breathing exercise and meditation to slow me down, SA TA NA MA it seems to have worked I feel better and it’s 7:00pm I am shortly going to crawl into bed.

 

Good night have a sober one!  Christina

Fridays

o.43658 Fridays used to be my favorite day, my Facebook posts were all about Fridays, Fridays represented to me to drink and party (don’t get me wrong I did it during the week too). Though it was my day that I didn’t have to worry about showing up to work hungover, and pretend I was working, but really just coping.  I had no patience to work and my temper was noticeable, I really hated people & their problems ugh.  I look back and think how irresponsible this was, not to just my customers but to my coworkers, and employers and myself, oh and the shit show getting out the door, so irresponsible also to my son.

Today Friday is just another day. Saturday Mornings when I wake up it doesn’t matter what the weather is, it’s sunny in my world on Saturdays.  For so many years I could barely get up on Saturdays, if I saw Saturday mornings it was a miracle and probably only because I had been drinking on Thursday so I didn’t drink on Friday because I was too hungover.    This Saturday I will work at my business, I will run on Saturday Morning , I’ll  do a Facebook Live on health and wellness.  I am in Hip Sobriety School and there is a 7:00AM coaching call like holy hell I will make that on Saturday Morning.

Friday has become a day for me to celebrate Saturday Mornings hangover free, and alert and generally happy.

How do you celebrate Saturday Mornings?

xoxox Christina