Mocktails are not all innocent

Mocktails are not all innocent

A recovery coach told me when I got sober, to go through the same ritual with mocktails, that I did with my cocktails, make a fancy drink they said, put it in a fancy glass enjoy. So on a hot May evening in 2017 that’s what I did, following the exact same habit looking up a recipe, making the mocktail, adding it to a fancy glass, with a lemon wedge, then sitting on the patio and then pretending. I might as well have just added the vodka to this pretty drink right then and there. I drank the next night. I have never made a mocktail at home again.

I never liked the idea of making mocktails at home, typically I drink water in general, before I got sober, I gave up pop years ago (was never a big drinker of it anyways) sometimes I’ll have fresh OJ with brunch, and of course Grape Gatorade when I was hungover (funny thing is I haven’t had a Gatorade since I got sober). But in general I drink 1 cup of coffee in the morning, and water. So the mocktail to me is like calling a tofu steak a real beef steak, it was not the real deal and when your in the mood for a beef steak and you get served tofu, it doesn’t cut it, in fact it made me crave alcohol more than ever.

I do order mocktails out sometimes, at work events or on Valentines Day and the Occasional Special dinner out but honestly 90% of them have been ok 10% have been amazing the one I paid $9.00 for, I felt ripped off.

The other problem I find with mocktails is they tend to be high in sugar drinks. Which in turn I crave more sugar.

I have tried other drinks like la croix and honestly it was just carbonated water, which I am not a fan of carbonated drinks. I don’t like feeling bloated and their coconut flavour tasted like Malibu to me. So another trigger.

So in the end I decided I’ll just stick with my water & coffee and my afternoon tea because mocktails are not all innocent to me.

Have you ever found mocktails triggering or do they satisfy the craving for a drink for you? Tell me in the comments I’m super interested.

xoxoxo Christina

Confession Time: I’ve Been Skipping Lunch

I know right what type of a confession is that, yes you can groan or insert eye roll. No not because i’m a fitness coach, and I tell everyone to eat proper meals but because of my sobriety, skipping meals is a big no no.

The importance of eating well & often became very profound when I got sober. You see I would skip meals like breakfast, & lunch maybe have a small snack and reach for the wine, in my drinking days it was a habit.

So the last few days, I’ve been bitchy AF, around 4pm, reaching for snacks that I wouldn’t normally eat, and really thinking about wine.

This is a warning sign, and a trigger, which being well enough into sobriety I know that I need to change up my habit of skipping lunch & get back into my healthy habits. It’s so easy for some reason for healthy habits to go off track.

So one of my approaches to healthy eating is protein, at every meal as protein helps keeps you full longer, and helps satiate the need to snack.

One of my tricks for eating lunch is making enough dinner the night before, so I cooked an extra chicken breast last night and cut up a salad, while I was prepping dinner so all I have to do is throw together today.

Salads are easy and nutritious but need to be flavorful, there’s no sense just trying to choke down lettuce make it tasty jazz up that salad: Chicken, hard boiled eggs, seeds, dried cranberries, croutons, goat cheese, grate things into it like carrots, cucumbers and red onions for some reason grating things into a salad changes the texture.

If you really struggle with lunch just make extra dinner and eat leftovers for lunch.

Soup is another fantastic idea, and literally you can put it in a thermos for on the go.

Another one I love is a can of Tuna, bit of greek yogurt, with hot sauce dip into sweet potato crackers and a slice of cucumber on top.

Remember lunch doesn’t have to be complicated just a habit.

Eating healthy nutritious meals really is part of sobriety, for mental clarity, for your health and to keep the booze bitch away.

xoxo Christina


How To Know If You Have a Drinking Problem

How To Know If You Have a Drinking Problem

How to know if you have a drinking problem. This subject came up the other day, in our book club, we all said that we had gone online and taken a test or googled the symptoms, everyone of us had done this, to see if we had a drinking problem. Some of the women identify as an alcoholic, some like myself identify with alcohol abuse disorder, each and everyone of us identify that alcohol intrerefered with our lives

One woman even said she lied on the test, so it came out NO. I justified on the test (it asked if you drank alone) I was a single mom, who did you want me to drink with my 5 year old? So how do you know?

  • You are googling it, is one of the first clues, though it might be years before that clue comes to light
  • My other clue & everyone else agreed it was the hangovers/wasted days of being incapacitated after.
  • The whole in my life
  • The anxiety from drinking
  • The guilt from drinking
  • The feeling in the morning of wishing I hadn’t drank the day before
  • And the fact it interfered with our jobs (missed days or just not being present) and or parenting (short tempered, missing parenting meetings, or not attending events).

Interesting fact was none of us said it was because we drank alone or because someone was concerned, or if it had negatively affected friendships or if we embarrassed ourselves ever or the fact that we had spent too much money drinking as we could rationalize these things. Or some of the questions didn’t even apply like do you get the shakes if you don’t drink, or do you crave alcohol daily (nope) it went deeper than just the surface questions.

You see having a drinking problem doesn’t look the same for everyone. You might see a person rummaging through a garbage can swigging booze out of a bottle (think Frank from Shameless) and think yeah he has a problem, but when you look at that well dressed woman with her son, who’s a single mom in her 30’s, goes out on weekends, rides her bike, is at the soccer field every saturday morning, has a nanny part time, has a corporate job, lives by the beach you may not look and guess she has a problem. There are so many definitions of does someone have a problem with alcohol and not one is right or wrong if they have a problem. Its if you are happy with our life.

Really only you can decide when you have had enough, that point has been made over and over by court ordered rehabs, detoxes, psychiatry holds, or when that mom cries on her couch every Sunday wishing she’d never drank again this weekend.

There is no defining point it’s just you and your life. The great thing is you can always try out not drinking and go back to it if it’s not for you or you can decide like I did that life is so much easier without alcohol/ hangovers you may never go back.

xoxox Christina