A Hallmark Christmas

So I remember December being a magical time, Christmas Trees, Rum & Egg Nog, Wine Nights with friends, Dressing up and off to amazing Christmas Parties, Driving around looking at the amazing houses full of Christmas Lights, Holiday Decorating, Carolling by the piano, baking short bread cookies and everyone so happy, buying and wrapping presents, while the whole family gathered around by the tree on Christmas morning happy and glorious singing songs and joy all around.

Actually that was a freaking Hallmark movie.  My life wasn’t like that I remember overeating all baked goods at the office, drinking wine like the Napa Valley was going to stop producing grapes,  being stressed to the max running around buying presents, decorating the house by myself, having christmas tree decorating parties that ended at 3am, finishing decorating the gingerbread house by myself, going to Christmas Parties and Dinners that I didn’t want to go to and staying out way too late, running to soccer games on Saturday mornings foggy headed and freezing my ass off, then a couple of days before Christmas jumping on the ferry (ok waiting 7 hours in line) then driving through blizzards (either rain or snow) to get home to my parents for Christmas and driving back 4 days later after a stressful time with them.   For years I remember waking up January 1st with a headache the size of Gibraltar swearing this was not going to be me again this coming December, but it happened year after year.  I didn’t take care of me, I was so worried everything looked perfect for everyone else for Christmas, being in 5 spots at once, going to all the parties, going to all the kids events, I destroyed myself in Decembers.  

Until last,  in August of 2017 this was  the year of huge changes in my life, I decided to finally stop drinking wine.  So when December came around my self care routine was in full swing.  In fact so much, that I could care less about Christmas and how it looked to everyone else.  I wanted Christmas Season to be calm & kind I wanted to wake up on January 1st  ready to jump into 2018.  And I did just that. I said no to a lot of parties, I went to my parents for 2 days, not 4 (which I enjoyed), I didn’t overeat, I exercised, I chose one Christmas event to attend, I had the entire family help decorate the house and tree (not just me) and guess what  I woke up on January 1st happy and ready to go.  I had taken care of me.  In fact I had a friend in from Australia, we went for a walk, came back to my house had breakfast with my husband. I finally woke up from the holidays feeling amazing.  Not bloated, not hungover, not tired, not stressed.  Who is this girl? 

I look back now and think it’s someone who took care of herself in December.  

When I first came out a month ago that I  had a huge wine & cigarette  habit and quit drinking and stopped smoking over a year ago the response was overwhelming and so was the curiosity from other women.  Frightening statistic, women right now are drinking more than ever, to cope, to compete, to numb, to relax.  It’s why I have created the #fitandsober challenge to go into December taking care of ourselves exercising ( making time for ourselves to feel better and cutting out alcohol) It’s 9 days to get your holiday glow on.    You can join here.  Click here to join the FIT AND SOBER CHALLENGE

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