So I have always been a no nonsense type of person. If I wanted to do something I did it, but if I didn’t want to do it, I dug my high heels in all the way to the core of the earth to not do it.
I hear today so many excuses though. When I decided to lose weight I was so uncomfortable in the pic that I saw of myself and felt so gross that was it. I did it slowly, I did it without fanfare, I did not declare a diet or a lifestyle change I just did it. I did it consistently, I did it through lots of research and change. Today my fitness is a healthy habit.
Getting sober consistently was a harder road for me, but I tried. I decided a year ago to really try and even though 2017 was filled with day one agains I still tried. Finally when I was so tired of wanting it I finally was willing to actually do something else. I let go of my judgements, I had to change my thinking my way was not working. I entered into an outpatient program I kept showing up, and slowly but surely there’s another 24 hours put together.
What I notice is the similarity between the two as they are both life changing & healthy
I have a friend that has bought every gadget (including a $500.00 smart watch even though she had a fit bit) that was going to make her exercise more, she was waiting to relocate, waiting to finish vacation, waiting for company to leave.. before starting to workout. Yesterday I sat in a support group listening to a woman that was in so much pain and we offered suggestions but she couldn’t do this or had a judgment around that type of program, she wanted sobriety. She isn’t willing to take any suggestions from group or advisors on change yet, and she’s been on the Recovery Road for 4 years. It was painful for me to listen to her (I cried for her).
What I noticed in both of these for me was that changing my life wasn’t easy, it’ s not perfect but I was so willing. It’s amazing when you open your heart and let go of your own ideas and don’t try and reinvent the wheel what can happen. I ask women who have spectacular hamstrings and great butts what their key exercises are, I also make sure I compliment them. For sobriety, I ask people what they did or do for fun, how they got through cravings, what if I found AA too religious or if I hated the word Alcoholic (which I do but honestly I like the group of people I found through it, so I don’t think too hard about the actual word GOD, and as for alcoholic I say I am Christina and I’m a problem drinker ) what really I do though is just let shit go, I don’t get too caught up in the wording. I go to a yoga 12 step meeting, which I love Y12SR, I have a support group, I had to take action though, not procrastinate, go to meetings and classes on days I didn’t feel like it and not make excuses or do it my own way. It’s what worked for me.
Here’s to another Sober Day!