On Saturday I will honour 6 months of sobriety. Wow, who can believe it, I barely can. The saying that really hits me is “just start because the time will pass any ways”
A couple of scenarios that really stick out for me about situations I have been worried about explaining my non drinking. It created so much stress leading up to both of these.
I have always been a worrier, it is part of the reason I drank, drinking took away the what if’s, my parents taught worrying to me that’s what they do.
I worry about everything in fact as I’m writing this, my son just said he’s going out “gulp” what if he gets into an accident. Like really that was is my first instinct. My husband was working in very bad weather conditions the other day I thought “what if” he hurts himself, I worry about my tenants in my basement suite and have gotten up in the middle of the night to turn up the heat (even though later they said “it was fine but wondered who was walking around in the middle of the night”) I thought it was a mother thing then I realized it was a learned behaviour, I watched my parents discuss every worry and then there was nothing to worry about. Worrying literally takes the joy out of the present moment, and can make me feel physically ill.
It’s been interesting looking back in regards to my sobriety. Letting go of the thought of “what are people are thinking of me not drinking” . On New Year’s Eve I went to a party and I made a kick ass punch oh (I’ll post the recipe below), I was asked by a guy why I wasn’t drinking I just said I didn’t drink he looked at me and told me I was brave to say that. Give me hell yeah, I am brave! I’ll always have a back up plan (to get out of a situation I may be in that puts my sobriety in jeopardy or makes me feel uncomfortable ) but my work I need to do is not to go into situations, worried & stressed and what if’ing myself to death for a week before.
Any other worriers out there? Let me know how you cope with worrying.
Here’s to another sober day!
THE PRETTIEST PUNCH RECIPE
(makes 2 water pitchers or put all in punch bowl)
1 Can of Frozen Cranberry McCain Juice
1 Can Frozen Pink Lemonade
Small Bag of Frozen Blueberries
Water (I used 1/2 a can from the Juice Can)
1 2 litre bottle of 7-UP ( I only used 3/4)
Mix to taste if it’s too sweet add a little more water!
Delicious and pretty garnish glasses with lemon or a sprig of mint and if you prefer add ice to the glasses not the punch.
Category: addiction, Anxiety and Addiction, Mocktails, Recovery, Sober, sober living, Uncategorized, Women in Recovery, Women in Sobriety, WorryingTags: anxiety and drinking, Mocktails, nonalcoholic beverage, soberliving, sobermom, what ifs, Worrying