So a few things have been coming to light, I never viewed myself as a sensitive person in fact I would describe myself more as a hard ass than sensitive, (I’ve been called Gemma – as in the matriarch from Sons of Anarchy gulp) I don’t think I’m that hard. I’ve always had to be tough though, since I left home I put myself into situations that I shouldn’t have, I dated the wrong for me guys, I have partied myself financially destitute, I’ve been a single mom, I have always had a strong work ethic so I’ve worked 2 or 3 jobs to get ahead, I ensured that we always lived in a great neighbourhood. I’ve been strong and I have ugly cried.
Now I am sober, I feel that I’m being oversensitive, maybe I always was but numbed it, as I am watching this journey of emotions it’s very very intriguing to me to explore what is going on.
Three things today happened:
I am so aware now of people and their actions, I know I cannot control them, just my reaction towards them. I leave today feeling bewildered three very different situations and so much sensitivity and feelings around all of them, pondering my part in them all. Human behaviour is so very complex.
Have you been more sensitive and awake to others behaviour and situations in your sobriety?
Grateful for another sober day.
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