Update from Friday, as I mentioned I’ve had a tough October, sober but tough… I wanted to give an update from Friday, as Friday was a bitch I was happy & anxious and I wanted to drink to get rid of the anxiety and be happier than I already was. I ended up going to bed and not really being able to sleep despite being tired so watched Netflix. I did not drink though.
Saturday I guess what I did. NOTHING that’s correct, I did NOTHING. I had a shower I got dressed and I did NOTHING. I have no idea the last time I did literally NOTHING, mom’s/wives/girlfriends/ daughters/friends/workers (put your label in here) don’t do nothing. My son asked me to go to his g/f’s soccer game I said no. My husband asked me to go to Costco I said no. Remember No is a complete sentence. I said NO to everything that day and it was one of the best things I could do for me. I stayed in on this rainy October yucky day and literally laid around. I Let my husband do the groceries(that’s another story (no vegetables or fruit was bought) , let him do the cooking & my son do the clean up and when I say I did nothing I mean nothing.
Guess what I woke up Sunday and I felt really good. I needed a break from life, I took one probably one that I needed so long ago. So here is proof, when you are struggling through cravings, it will go away if you do not give in, I didn’t drink and I’m so beyond words glad I’m sober and stayed sober. So do what you need to do to get through the cravings ( I paced around, I reached out online, I meditated, I watched Netflix) because Friday was bad but Sunday is good.
Sobriety can’t be bought it is earned nano second by nanosecond, minute by minute, hour by hour, day by day. Earning something and working for it, I appreciate it, I cherish it a little deeper. Maybe even deeper than I did on the days it came easy.
A round of water for all!