So I haven’t been counting the days sober, because I didn’t count my days of drinking but……. I’ve had a pretty tough October being sober and I suddenly realized I always when I have been sober thought it was for longer but…. this has been my longest stint of sobriety, wanting sobriety (know what I mean, not stopping drinking because I was pregnant & breastfeeding or because I was on a diet – which are legitimately two of my other reasons I have stopped drinking) Actually looking at my drinking and deciding to do something about it. The first time was 10 weeks (I had to go look at the calendar to actually see how long it was I thought it was 4 months OMG) next was 8.5 weeks and many other shorter stints, but never giving up.
I feel that the 60-90 days is perilous for me, so I am staying vigilant. I also have seen many people relapse including myself in that time. I feel as this is a huge healing time a huge shifting time (mind body and soul). If anyone has any insight on this time frame I would love to hear it.
Tonight I admit has been a tough one, it’s Friday and there’s a nagging at me, I’ve had a good day and a few incidences that brought up anger. I am fed but feel like I can’t breathe. Anxious. So I decided to first reach out to some sober sisters, then I decided to do a Kundalini breathing exercise and meditation to slow me down, SA TA NA MA it seems to have worked I feel better and it’s 7:00pm I am shortly going to crawl into bed.
Good night have a sober one! Christina